7/2/12- gotta keep it moving

i'm waiting for the results of my mri......WAITING SUCKS! the pain in my back has moved down my right leg and it hurts like....WOW!!!! the pain actually takes my breath away. i try so hard not to cry, but sometimes, i just cant help it. i've had to become creative with working out while in pain. i'm focusing more on upper body and chore strengthening exercises. i'm also back in the pool, no stress on my back and the water feels great!

sometimes my emotions get the best of me and i eat things that i shouldnt, but for the most part, i've been eating clean, little to no dairy, lean meats, veggies, fruit, nuts and lots water. i'm on vacation this week and dont want to get off track with eating right.


i saw a dear friend on yesterday (hi Paula!) and she encouraged me to keep writing. honestly, i havent really felt like sharing much lately, but the whole point of this blog is about being accountable.....sharing good and bad, but always being honest with myself and others. thanks for the reminder, Paula :)


all of me,
Char

Marathon Runner

 I've said it, heard it, read it and even received it in a text message this morning (thanks, charlie). the journey is like a marathon, not a sprint. i often forget that, especially when things aren't going my way. there will be ups and downs, high and lows, but what i have to do is remember the destination and know that i will get there. sometimes, i get frustrated and feel totally lost. that's when i re-read the plan that i wrote 3 years ago, dust myself off and get my butt back on track. it may take me longer than i originally planned, but i will lose the weight......period!!!

I.WILL. FINISH. STRONG.


all of me,
Char

backing it up!

its been a minute....what's up?? well, as some of you may know, i injured my back in february.  a wrong move during zumba class and OUCH!!!! xrays revealed that the lower region or the L5 was jacked up! yes, that's a medical term. LOL. the xrays also revealed that i have degenerative disc disease which scared me at first, but after some reading and talking to my chiro, i learned that it's pretty common. even a few of my fb friends have it. anyway, i've had a few untreated back injuries over the years and that can be one of the causes. i can remember being a kid and having problems with back (car accident) and later in my teens and especially after the birth of my children. so, what has this meant as far as my workouts? it has meant that i have been very limited. after 8 chiro adjustments, i was feeling pretty good and decided i could go back to praise dance at church. the chiro reminded me that just because i was feeling better didn't mean i was done healing.....recovery NOT recovered. i wasn't trying to be disobedient, but i just missed moving and dancing and spinning so much. well, guess who wont be moving and dancing and spinning for a while? i feel like i am starting over as far as working out. i am limited to walking and stretching. and though both are great, i had gotten use to doing more. but if i don't wanna jack my back up even more (yep, still a medical term) then i have to chill. for real, for real, i'm little depressed about it and its showing up in my eating. this from a girl who loathed exercise cause it made you breath too hard. now i miss dancing and weight lifting and even pretending to be a runner. LOL. i'm kinda of an all or nothing kinda person and if i can't do it full force, then i don't wanna do it. so to me, if i can't lift weights like i use to, then i'm not gonna do it at all! or if i can't walk as fast as i use to.....you get what i'm saying.  my husband reminded me that i need to listen to my body (and him) and do what i can for now. i gotta keep it moving forward! how he gonna use MY motto against me? LOL


this week i have done little to no exercise, but i plan to change that ASAP! i can still walk, right? i can still do use resistance bands, right?  i can still work on getting these flabby arms in shape with hand weights, right? i will not allow depression to set in and keep me from my goal. sometimes, it seems so close and other times it seems so far away, but at all times, i'm on my way there.


all of me,
Char

find your beautiful

in my last post (ok, i know its been a while) i talked about facing my food issues. i am currently reading a book titled, made to crave by lisa terkeurst. its a great book; revealing that its actually NOT food that we crave. if you are interested in knowing more, BUY THE BOOK! www.madetocrave.org

in the 2 years that i've been transforming my body, i also have been transforming my mind. for years, i always thought of myself as a fat girl....PERIOD! never seeing myself as beautiful;never accepting the gifts and talents that God placed inside of me. But now, i see and know that I AM BEAUTIFUL!! its beyond a physical thing, but that is part of it. i do take more time on my physical appearance...hair,clothes, makeup. my husband says i enjoy taking pictures now. but, i think i take even more time on cultivating my gifts, talents and relationships. these are the things that make me feel beautiful.

be your best you. FIND YOUR BEAUTIFUL.



all of me,
Char

we fall down, but we get up

NEVER, EVER, NO NEVER go grocery shopping when you are hungry!!!! i thought i was superwoman, and thought i was strong enough to do it..... HA!!!!!!! after i load the groceries in the car, i am shoving cookies in my mouth; looking like the cookie monster. once i came out of my cookie coma, i wanted to cry. instead, i text'd my hubby and told him of my indiscretion. he was understanding, but firm in reminding me of my goal. it's only by the grace of God that i didn't gain a million pounds overnight.

there is still much work to be done. since i was a kid, food has been a major factor in my life... more than i wanted to admit. but once i admitted it and started being honest with myself, i knew i could do something about it. admitting you have a problem is half the battle. the other half is doing something about. I'M DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT.....ARE YOU????

all of me,
Char

12/2/11- watch those numbers drop

all i have to say is........60 LBS. GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


all of me,
Char

10/26/11- the final countdown

i celebrated my b-day earlier this month...happy b-day to me! i am now 39 years old....WOW!!!! in case you haven't noticed, i've made a slight change to title of the blog, from fat to 40-the final year. the countdown has officially begun. i am excited about the next 350 days! i have no idea what is going to happen, but i'm not worried at all. i put my confidence in God and trust Him to know what's best for me.

the journey does not end at 40. it will continue, but in a different direction. i am 56 lbs lighter than i was 2 years ago...amazing! i plan to be even lighter this time next year on my 40th b-day. i guess we will change the name of the blog? how bout from 40 to 50-the next chapter? :)

all of me,
Char